Most people are so unconscious that they believe they are in control of their lives but truly speaking they are driven by sub conscious memories many of which are very ancient carry overs. Its time you now took control of your car. think of your body as a car and the mind (memories) as the reckless driver. To get this reckless driver under control, much like you cant change anything you don’t have a grip of at first, first become aware of the mind (like clutching) and use the brakes ( still the mind) and use the accelerator carefully only to steer yourself to the right path of Self Knowledge and freedom from the illusion of worldly existence. Once your on the right path inspiration will drive you and you can let go of any kind of control and just stay aware ….